Wednesday, October 28, 2009


In our culture, we don't confess our wrong doings. In fact, a person who admits something which he did and was wrong, it's like he is putting himself naked in front of judgmental folks who would never admit to have done something less than perfect.

One of the negative points in my "recent" performance review was the inability to focus on things at hand, at times. I thought it was true. I admitted that, but then this thing overshadowed every other achievement mentioned in there. Everybody has some negative points flying about him all the time. Or else everyone would have a P.B.U.H. postfix to his name.

People on roads keep arguing about whose fault that accident was. Politicians keep throwing shit on each other.

I am growing more and more disappointed of this world every day.

Monday, October 19, 2009

I live in a middle, working class neighborhood which is divided merely by a small road from the posh area. The park I go to daily for jogging is actually on the posh side. Before the park there's a huge ground, among many, where rich moms and dads teach their younguns how to drive. Those folks own big expensive cars, like, BMW, Mercedes, Accord etc. Boy, do I envy them.

So, last evening when I was driving along that huge ground to get to the park, I saw a Rickshaw there. Upon looking closely I saw that a Rickshaw driver was teaching his young little son how to drive the Rickshaw. The view gave me a chill and I kept thinking about it long after.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

This is probably the most fucked up country right now. People are being killed like fucking insects, inflation is skyrocketing, politicians are making swindling legal by passing that NRO, every commodity is at "international price" while people get paid at local rates, provinces are fighting each other while one is celebrating it's own independence day, our President is the biggest looter in our country's history, and on top of that we have fucking Afghanistan as neighbor.

100% of the people are doing something wrong and unethical. Everybody's trying to rob other. More money is handled in Police stations than in banks. Corruption under every fucking brick. I earn 5 times than an average person but cannot buy a house even if I start saving all of my earnings for next 30 years. 100% of my taxes are spent on buying extremely expensive vehicles for Govt. officials who, on papers, get paid 1/3 of my salary but own 100 million rupee houses in posh areas.

I cannot even wish for a revolution. It's not that a particular class is fucking this country up, everybody is ruining it one way or another.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Thursday, October 8, 2009

If my depression, right now, could be converted into energy, it would save Pakistan's electricity crisis, for ever.